Every once in a while I get those moments where life is just overwhelming and the littlest thing, which in the end was stupid, creates this gush of emotion.
To my dear, dear friends your posts and just your smiles of knowing, understanding and encouragement fills me with joy and love and friendship, oh, and a lot of hope.
There comes that day when everything focuses and you realize that I am far luckier than so many others and a little guilt creeps in at being so profoundly a downer. I have no right to be so negative when I have so much. Please forgive my moment in time, it has passed, but in that moment I was changed for the better. It might just be a little change not a profound, life altering movement, but a quiet, intrinsic, glimmer of what could be if you just try and have faith and have friends who love you and make it ok to have that moment.
I have creativity flowing, now I must reign it in and see where it takes me. If the other parts of life aren't what I need them to be then I need to use my art as my outlet, my refuge and my release. I think maybe I am on my way to actually being a true artist with vision. Maybe, just maybe.
Love to you all!
C
